What's goin on?? I'm just got home from school a little while ago and theres nothing else to do but sit here and stare at the computer screen or actually type something ... so here i am AGAIN .. its not like anyone actually reads this ... i went back to school today and i really wish I had been sick longer ... school is soo boring and I really want it to end. Why dont teachers understand its senior year and this whole giving us schoolwork and homework just isnt happening any more ... i laughed in my teachers face today when he told me i had to take a test and he didnt make me take it  ... AHHHH i just wann get out of academic once and for all ... things need to change i need new scenery .. and this is why I think I've come to a decision about college .. NJCU is a good school and its a good chance to play soccer but I mean really I'm not good enough to have it tkae me anywhere after college and I don't really want it to .. so I think Seton Hall is  the school for me .. I've wanted to go there for awhile and it is a little bit away from home so that means dorming .. new people .. new place .. I think its what I need .. so yea after a few more days of thinking .. i should come to a complete decision ... wow its crazy how hard this decision really is .. i always thought college would be an easy thing to decide on .. but when it comes down to it ... this decision changes EVERYTHING about your life.. crazy thats all i have to say ... i just wanna say anthony mele is adorable ... hes too freakin sweet .. tellin me that i look beautiful when i clearly dont ... he just knows how to makes girls smile .. thats why I'm gonna marry him .. even if he doesnt believe me I am .. hehe .. aiight IM out LATER guys

Hey! what's goin on people? Well I'm not dead like many people think I am, I've just been really sick since tuesday . I've also been in maplewood the whole time so even if someone wanted to they couldn't visit me. I just made this cause I was bored these past few days and I was lookin at everyone about 1000 times and had to make one. I should have spent my time callin colleges and finding out if they could give me more money but I'm lazy. Speaking of college I'm still waitin for one more letter, and it really needs to come cause I really wanna go there cause I need to get away from Jersey. Sorry to all you Jersey lovers, I mean I love it too , but I just wanna see what it feels like to live somewhere else. If I end up not getting in the college I'm waiting for, Quinnipiac University, then I have to decide if I wanna go to NJCU and play soccer , or Seton Hall University where I've wanted to go for awhile . Who knows though, each college has its perks. You know what I realized that you should always go say hi to someone if you feel like talking to them. A couple weeks ago at Military Ball I asked Anthony  to dance, I didn't know him then, but it was great he's like one of the coolest kids I ever met. And I mean it doesn't hurt that we always tell eachother that we're great, hehe. ANTHONY YOUR GREAT.  Another thing I learned recently, sometimes you have to hold back in situations. Becoming too attached to someone only cause heartache in the end. This is being said from personal experience as well as having to help my friends deal with shit situations. Well, okay I'm done bitching for now. *mauhz* LATER